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Not so good Health Update

Day #2 in CCU not looking good...

No food or water not even ice chips in 2 days and then *I* didn't eat the day before that because I had a cold and no one is hungry on a cold. So in the past 72 hours I've had in total 2 pieces of string cheese and a can of GInger Ale mixed with Orange Juice, that was about noonish on Wednesday...

They are pumping me full of steroids which means my insulin intake on the pump is through the roof, 18 units an HOUR not a day but an HOUR!'

I'm on 100% oxygen with breathing treatments every 3 hours. They are gonna send me to have a CT to check for embolisms in my lungs and if that fails to yield any results.

They are going to incubate me again.

Happy ALMOST ten year anniversary, I get to do it all over again. Yes, coma, subsequent muscle atrophy, rehab all over again.

I am frankly terrified. I would rather die than go through this again.
I cannot describe the horror I am feeling facing this again.



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Oct. 30th, 2009 04:06 pm (UTC)
Thinking about you, sweetie, and I hope you feel better soon. I know it's scary, but at least this time if you're not all alone. <33
Oct. 30th, 2009 04:26 pm (UTC)
Oh god, D. I'm praying that you make it through this. *sends lots of love your way* <3<3
Oct. 30th, 2009 05:16 pm (UTC)
My thoughts are with you. I hope things start improving very soon. *crosses fingers*
Oct. 30th, 2009 05:36 pm (UTC)
1999 and 2009 are worlds apart. Look: The only number that is the name is then 9 at the end. Isn't that a fine remark about how much has changed in that time? New friends, a new husband, a new house and a whole new life, in so many ways.

I know this doesn't do anything to *change* what you've gone through and what you WILL go through... but... Just like the phrase "I love you".. sometimes, it's good to be reminded of what you have.

I don't remember if I've ever said this before, but if I haven't, I should: I admire you greatly. I've been a fan of you, your art and your stories for many many years. When I say many years, I mean back in the heyday of Gundam Wing. I can remember going to your website, looking for updates, I remember grabbing pieces of your black and white artwork, opening them in photoshop and coloring them. My friend told me I should send them to you, but I was convinced they were horrible. And they were. I had no idea what the 'multiply' function would do. My way of coloring line art was to turn it semi transparent then color on to a layer below it. EVERYTHING was a pastel, soft edged mess.. But that didn't change the fact that I loved the art, and the stories that went with them.

You helped, in many ways, define an era in my life. From where I'm standing now, you've mattered, you've made a difference, i admire you! Perhaps later, one day, things will change and I will only passingly remember you, and Gundam Wing, but that day will not be for many years yet to come...

Thank you for influencing my life. Thank you for doing, being, and sharing with us all. You are a wonderful person.

and I hope that me, shyly coming forward, will remind you of this in your dark times ahead.

But just remember, above all else: You are not alone. We love you.

Let us know if there is anything you need.
Oct. 30th, 2009 07:42 pm (UTC)
*hugs & love*!!!!!!!!!!
Oct. 30th, 2009 08:44 pm (UTC)
Lots o' hugs from the other end of the 'net. *hugs* I miss you guys.

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Oct. 31st, 2009 04:02 pm (UTC)
*HUGS* Sending good thoughts your way, D. I know how much hospitals suck, but you're in the right place, and things have come a long way in ten years. Just think about how far you've come in 10 years. You're one of the strongest people I've ever known, and you're going to get through this.
Love you, D.
Oct. 31st, 2009 05:11 pm (UTC)
*hugs* I am hoping things get better for you very soon. You are an amazing person, and I know you are strong enough to get through this. And you have lots of us to lend you our strength in the best ways we can. Even if it is from long distance in our thoughts alone.

We all love you very much, babe.
Oct. 31st, 2009 10:29 pm (UTC)

You'll be in my thoughts.
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