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I’m late posting this, I do this every year and I usually post this on the anniversary of my “almost didn’t make it” date of 12-08-99.

Considering it’s closer to my “I made it! Woo-Hoo!” date of 12-25-99 I think it’s more appropriate considering how I feel.

Once again I count my blessings and look back. This year marks the fifth anniversary of my brush with Mr. Death. I’m happier every year, I’m grateful I’m alive and I’m happier, much happier than I was.

I hope I’m a better person and I hope the joy I find in life touches those I hold dear.

Everyday I wake up and I have all those I love still here in the world with me makes me thrilled to be here.

Everyday I take a step, sit up, draw a picture, write a story, hold a baby or sing a song I remember a time I could do none of those things. I remember lying there with nothing but my pissed off, I’m not gonna give up without a fight, will to get out of bed and LIVE AGAIN!

I remember fighting every step of the way, and damn it feels GREAT to be sitting here typing this and being able to tip my proverbial hat to the reaper and say.

“Thanks for the wake up call, you don’t have to come back any time soon. Let’s resume that dance when I’m old, next time I’ll let you lead rather than me.”

To my old friends who know what happened 12-08-99 you walked these past five years with me, and thank you for being there to help me when I needed you.

To my new friends whom I’ve just met, here’s to the next five!

I raise my glass in toast to all you beautiful people, thank you very much for sticking by my side and making life worth fighting for!

Happy Holidays and Season’s Cheer to you all!


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Dec. 22nd, 2004 05:33 am (UTC)
*hugs you*
Dec. 22nd, 2004 06:13 am (UTC)
Dec. 22nd, 2004 05:35 am (UTC)
Although I don't know what happened to you five years ago, I'm glad you made it through, and celebrating still being alive is a good thing! (I did that on my 30th birthday, because after having had the flu from hell for three months and repeatedly wondering if I'd actually wake up the next morning, I was amazed and pleased to make it to age 30, even if I did feel like crap!)
Dec. 22nd, 2004 06:28 am (UTC)
Very Long Story : The condensed Version Time-Line

12-08-99 = Total Pulmonary Failure rushed to ER

12-08-99 - 12-24-99 = On life support, in a medically induced coma on a respirator in intensive/critical care for 3 weeks, develop Pneumonia while on respirator, they gave me a 30% chance of survival for that second week, I was fucked up.

12-25-99 = Woke up a MESS, Tubes everywhere, still in Intensive/Critical Care and on top of everything else, because of the medically induced catatonia I also have 100% total muscle atrophy. I was really LITERALLY a skeleton and water in skin. ZERO muscle mass. I had bird claws for hands and feet, I was disgusting to look at.

12-25-99 -- 12-29-99 -- Get stable

12-30-99 -- 12-31-99 get moved to normal room, still unable to do anything but BLINK (Can't even talk)

01-01-00 -- 02-14-00 -- Start recovery, I can lift my right arm five inches if it's propped on a pillow by Valentine's day.

02-15-00 -- 03-29-00 -- Moved to another hospital that specialized in Physical Therapy Rehab INTENSE 8 hours sessions every day

04-01-00 -- I stand (with help) and take 4 steps (with lots of help SAME DAY)

Stll in Wheelchair and wheel myself out...

04-07-00 -- 09-01-00 Physical Therapists come to my home weekly (During this time I find the internet because I am BORED all day long so while I do leg exercises I surf)

11-27-00 -- Am released from Disability

12-13-00 FINALLY get a Job and Go back to work!

That was a VERY LONG Year.
Dec. 22nd, 2004 12:30 pm (UTC)
I read this every year. You are a total inspiration. I had been thinking about this since 5:30AM when I woke up and so couldn't get back to sleep. It's what has inspired me in so many ways.


Because of you, I have been inspired to better myself in ways I never would have. Thank you!

And here's to more than another 5 years!!

*big bear hug*
Dec. 24th, 2004 06:17 am (UTC)
HERE HERE Life is too fragile to WASTE it on petty things.


Happy Holidays!

Dec. 22nd, 2004 02:36 pm (UTC)
Oh wow, you are so lucky to be alive and able to live a normal life - that was a very close scrape with death and a lengthy time needed to recover. I can really understand why you celebrate your anniversary of life now - thank you for sharing. *Big hugs*

BTW, I love your Christmas layout!
Dec. 24th, 2004 06:19 am (UTC)
Thank You!


Friends old and new are the best, here's to getting to know one another better int he future


Dec. 22nd, 2004 05:45 am (UTC)
And we're all so damned proud of you, sweetie. *hugs* Cheers!
Dec. 22nd, 2004 06:33 am (UTC)
ANd just think, If I wasn't here, you'd not have your


(did Andy run the batteries out yet?)

*ducks the wrath of the wee one.*


Hugs back!
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Dec. 22nd, 2004 06:34 am (UTC)
FWEEE Hugs back!

Dec. 22nd, 2004 06:56 am (UTC)
*hugs tightly*

*raises Coke glass*

To the next five, you groovy chick!
Dec. 24th, 2004 06:11 am (UTC)
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Dec. 24th, 2004 06:22 am (UTC)
Re: ::great big huge mondo HUG!::
I really wanna meet you too, oh the sheer mayhem that can insue if we do it right!

What officer? We were just LOOKING at the boys over there honest. What do you mean we're being indecent? Oh yeah, I guess we did ask them to pose nude and snog each other for our entertainment.


I really hope 2005 brings you better luck, you're in my prayers.


Dec. 22nd, 2004 12:08 pm (UTC)
Add me to the long list of people who are grateful that things turned out so well for you. One of the things I like best about you is that you seem to enjoy life to the fullest. Now, I have an idea why that is.

Here's to many, many more wonderful years for you. *huggles*
Dec. 24th, 2004 06:12 am (UTC)
Here Here!

Happy Christmas!!!

Dec. 22nd, 2004 03:48 pm (UTC)
*loves all over you*

Well I'm certainly happy you're still here.
Dec. 24th, 2004 06:14 am (UTC)
Me too!

*loves back*

I just finished Book Nine of PSoH

I love D! and I want T-chan damn it!

I'll mail them back after the post office won't MANGLE them after the first of the year here.

I'm gonna scan the covers so I have som reference material and can you send me the scene you want me to draw from your ficcy? I remember the idea, but if you have a written moment I wanna try to capture it for you.

Dec. 24th, 2004 05:13 pm (UTC)
D is sexy ass sexy! And yes! T-chan is such a pretty pretty goat!!!!! I adore that series. I will be so sad when volume ten comes out. *sniff* I won't be back til the tenth anyway, so no worries. Send them back whenever. I don't really need them for anything right away. I'm glad you liked it.

Hmmmm. Well the story is here:


I have some images... the vines should be wrapped around Leon's legs and hands and he should be completely bound. As for D's viney self... I guess, I imagined it being mermaid like... he still has two legs, but they sort of become viney and sort of become a part of the vines. Not like he's half and half, but he sort of blends into the vines at the thighs. When I wrote the story, I sort of imagined Leon on his back and D above him, but I'm not picky. If a particular angle works better in your brilliant artistic mind, I'll be happy. It doesn't have to fit to the story really. Just the concept.

Man, I wish I could do something else for you! Write you a fic or something. If you think of something let me know.

Of course you get massages every con after this! A picture of yours is definitely worth a lifetime supply of yearly massages. *hugs*
Dec. 22nd, 2004 03:50 pm (UTC)
So cute!
Sexy, red-haired pixie!
Dec. 24th, 2004 06:15 am (UTC)
Thank You!

Dec. 22nd, 2004 04:18 pm (UTC)

You floor me. Will there ever come a time that you don't surprise me in any way, shape, or form?

Oh, god, I hope not! ^_^ ;;hugs;; Merry 'Will-to-Live'! ;;raises glass to offer at toast;; To many many MANY more years together, all of us, well and alive!
Dec. 24th, 2004 06:16 am (UTC)
*Toasts Back*


FWEEEE I'm in such a holiday cheer spirit.

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