December 9th, 2003

aph-SuFin (My Art) 2

No longer Unemployed... sort of

Well, I have a temp job through Kelly Services starting on Monday the 15th working Customer Service at Cigna Healthcare

The Job? Handling DENIED insurance claims.

*CRIES* My empathy is going to take a serious battering so if I'm a sad depressed nervous wreck emotionally for the next 6 months you'll know why. Because I'll have to listen to very sick people cry on the phone 8 hours a day, 40 hours a week.

And seeing as *I* am a very sick person without insurance, I will be more than a sympathetic ear.

I'm terrified this job is gonna make me suicidal.


But I have no choice, I have only 2 weeks of unemployment benefits left anyway, so it was take the first thing that comes at this point since I've had NOTHING for 8 months.


I'm not looking forward to this for 7 bucks an hour. That's too little pay for the sheer amount of emotional stress I'm going to suffer at this job.

Beggars can't be choosers as they say, I gotta suck it up and do it.

Good thing I really only communicate in this journal anymore. I'll not be a very pleasant person to deal with in the near future.

*HUGS* Thanks everyone for putting up with me.

and thanks for all the hugs, you guys are awesome
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Writer's Cramp.... Writing Addresses on Envelopes

WOW! I have a lot of friends! O_O *feels loved*

However... I should have counted all my addresses before Printing Cards.

I'm 4 homemade Cards short.


So I'm afraid 4 of you will be getting store bought cards because I'm an idiot and didn't plan ahead like a baka, I went "Surely 50 is enough..."


I'm such a Moron.

But at least I got all the envelopes addressed, now to sign cards, print some return address labels, because again I'm not writing it 54 times in a row, then find a sponge so I don't have to lick all these.

Unless you all really want my spit. :P

Pointless post this, just felt bad I was 4 cards short.

And didn't realize it, naturally, until I went to grab another Envelope to address, and there were none left in the Box.

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aph-SuFin (My Art) 2

That about says it all...

Fool me once, shame on you
Fool me Twice, shame on me.

Shame on me.

And now I'm all alone again
Nowhere to turn, no one to go to
Without a home, without a friend,
Without a face to say hello to.
And now the night is near
Now I can make believe he's here.

Sometimes I walk alone at night
When everybody else is sleeping
I think of him and then I'm happy
With the company I'm keeping
The city goes to bed
And I can live inside my head.

On my own
Pretending he's beside me
All alone, I walk with him till morning
Without him
I feel his arms around me
And when I lose my way I close my eyes
And he has found me

In the rain the pavement shines like silver
All the lights are misty in the river
In the darkness, the trees are full of starlight
And all I see is him and me for ever and forever

And I know it's only in my mind
That I'm talking to myself and not to him
And although I know that he is blind
Still I say, there's a way for us

I love him
But when the night is over
He is gone, the river's just a river
Without him the world around me changes
The trees are bare and everywhere
The streets are full of strangers

I love him
But every day I'm learning
All my life I've only been pretending
Without me his world will go on turning
A world that's full of happiness
That I have never known!

I love him
I love him
I love him
But only on my own.

Never Dream, Never Hope, Never Wish
Truth is, it WILL come true... for someone ELSE.
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