Apparently I'm not allowed to speak my mind for fear of, God forbid, giving a bad reputation vicariously to someone else.
Even when things can't possibly coincide, I have to stifle myself 100% "just in case".
Those who this applies to, KNOW what this statement means.
Those of you wondering, just ignore this, it does not and will not concern you.
But I am tired, I'm sick, I'm cranky, I'm EXHAUSTED.
and I am simply infuriated that something I began because I CARED has turned into the shackle from hell.
I will NOT stop being me, not even if that had been my CAREER and I was getting PAID for it.
Reputation obviously does not mean much to me, it never has.
Proven integrity, honesty means something.
I so quit.
No more, Done, Finito. I do not need stress and blatant innuendo, and the I can't feel good because "what ifs" that never happened may have happened and.. DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA.
I can't stand melodrama and the forever living in fear of "What ifs"
IF I worry you all to the point of Ulcers I don't need the little fear dances, and the not to subtle messages skirting the problem.
ME, I scare you, I rock your little boat.
Fine, I'll give you calm waters....