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Stream of consciousness rambling....

I have been extremely anti-social after getting back from y-con. Really way out of my norm.

It's either

A.) Hormonal
B.) I just don't like any of you :P
C.) taking a break
D.) All of the above sans "B"

I think it's D...

Co-winky-dink? No, I think it was a while in coming. I'm having fun doing Role Play, I don't have to be myself. And when I'm not actively playing, I can watch the others play and it's so entertaining I practically wet myself laughing, have given myself and asthma attack twice I laughed so hard, or want to scream from the sheer angst... But it's good emotional highs and lows and it's not taken serious, that game is so fucked up and discombobulated there's no way in HELL it could be taken seriously. Yeah it has it's sappy waffy moments, and it's fights, and it's DRAMA, but all of it is tempered with some outstanding HUMOR, everyone is very witty in their own right it's just good old fashioned fun and mucking around. I'm not "D" I'm someone else for a couple of hours.

I'm not drawing, I'm not doing much of anything but doing mindless stuff and laughing and reading and doing nothing of a high profile sort of thing.

Relaxing a bit, what a concept, I've been really high-strung and it's good to just go run into the proverbial shadows and chill out in the dark for a while.

Granted I don't know what sort of drama is going on behind the scenes, and I Really do NOT want to know. I just hope the players involved sort out with each other SOON. Because while I'm concerned for them, I really do not want to be involved in the details.

I just met them and adore them. They are such funny wonderful people and I hope, hope, hope it all blows over very soon.

I had the chance to make some wonderful new friends to add to my already large list of wonderful friends and this makes me a happy person.

Yes it does.

Talking to our player who play's Ginji to my Ban I learned in Real life she's a music teacher, something I ALMOST became (until I actually had to student teach the monsters and wanted to create new ways to use cattle prods, I'm not the personality type for teaching, glad I learned it THEN. But too late to change my major! ><__><). So we had a great talk about music, and the same/similar schooling we went through, and we hated the same stuff in college, and we're both weird and I learned I'm not the only person to start singing obscure songs inspired by random comments my friends make.

It's a music geek quirk. HEE

I like talking to nice people about NON-fandom things occasionally and just talk about common interests, it was a very refreshing talk tonight.

Then of course we proceeded to make the sappiest thing I've ever written look like Clive Barker's Hellraiser!

God it was so sappy, *I* was gagging, but it was fun Role Play for shits and giggles.

She being Eastern time however and having a concert and a grading week on her shoulders had to get some sleep. I pity her, and admire her patience for teaching at all.

Same with Lorena, I really don't know how you do it. I hated my teaching experience with a passion. Granted I was Inner City Chicago Public High School system trained, and that was scary enough on it's own, but the kids... the fucking KIDS! I wanted to murder for the sheer disrespect and ATTITUDE and massive chips on their shoulders... I wasn't much older and I never treated student teachers or teachers they way they treated me and their normal teacher.

So teachers again my hats OFF to you, you saints of the world!

I hope my weird mood passes soon, and to those of you I owe e-mail too, It's sitting in my inbox before I respond out of character for me, I'm gonna sit on my mood a while and answer you when I'm more myself again.

To those I owe piccies too (Kiriban and otherwise) I will get them done, just even my pictures looks awful (I mean really BAD SUCKY POO-POO 3-year-old) awful. Again I think it's mood, and headache related. (Got that migraine back again, but like an idiot I kept forgetting my glasses in the room during y-con, so I think that's a big part of my migraine being back)... and to my other friends who might be worried bout me and my severe lack of participation in general oh, um EVERYWHERE.

I'm fine, and getting more fine as the time goes on.

This withdrawal is doing me a world of good, and I think I'm gonna stay here a while longer yet.

Selfish ME, ME, ME TIME. I love you all a lot!

And I love hiding under this rock for the time being a lot too.

Thanks for supporting me, I really appreciate it!


Edit:

And for the record "apryl wiliams" I really LOATHE all the flipping fowarded messages you keep sending me. I don't even KNOW YOU, yet I seem to be included in all those wonderful "SEND THIS TO ALL YOUR FRIENDS OR THE WORLD WILL END and TIMMY IS GONNA DIE OF THE BOOGIE WOOGIE POSTULE GROWTHS ON HIS EXPLODING STD WARTED AND CANCEROUS PROSTRATE, SEND THIS ON NOW TO ALL AND DONATIONS WILL BE MADE TO HIS 73 CHILDREN (ALSO DYING OF AIDS) BY RED CROSS, UNICEF, AND BILL GATES, OFFER VOID IN ALASKA AND MAINE!" messages.

I recognize your name and CRINGE when I see it in my inbox, and sure enough the subject header hs a "FWD:" tag, and the message will have 8 gazzillion un-edited e-mail address of the poor schmoes who got it sent to them before me because you're too lazy to clean up the message before you forward it... and I asked you several times to remove me from your forward e-mail list nicely.

With a name like "apryl wiliams" I'm going to recognize it every time, it's unique.. I notice unique names having one myself... so when I yell at you the third time (And you've sent me FAR MORE THAN THREE OF THESE DAMN MESSAGES, it's gotta be at least 50 by now) I'm going to crack and type in all caps and tell you that I do not know who you even are and demand that you stop sending me mail (I'd block you if my hotmail wasn't already MAXED on blocked addresses). SO when you get angry at me in return because I yelled at you, "BOO HOO".... I give a shit. Really. Don't reprimand me for not asking nicely, I did that twice and you ignored me... yelling seemed to get your attention... now... Just stop sending me crap already!!!!!

Ah that felt really GOOD.

Comments

( 4 comments — Leave a comment )
ashkitty
Oct. 27th, 2003 01:44 am (UTC)
*rubs hands together wickedly*

Welcome to the wonderful escapist world of RP. ;)

And dude, I hate forwards.
fablespinner
Oct. 27th, 2003 01:54 am (UTC)
It is wonderfully escapist, I love it!!!
^^
laughingwolf
Oct. 27th, 2003 06:47 am (UTC)
I got pics....of Ginji sandwhich!!! and Kazuki! i'll have to scan them in laters cause i gotta get going, but whoo hoo i got great pics, well except for the damn auction *wails* cause my flash wasnt' so good damn it, you can barely see whats going on, but got GREAT pics of HARLEY!! *grin*

i'll post them hopefully this evening.


*huggles*

and yes the game is major fun! *G*
hiramekimirei
Oct. 27th, 2003 10:19 am (UTC)
Totally understandable
I totally understand your fwd message woes I get them all the time, I think part of the problem is that they get your e-mail address from the yahoo groups we're in. Oh and hi *waves* I'm new here but have been reading your stuff for a long time, and your art is also gorgeous.
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