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FIC: "Win, Lose or Draw?"



Proofread Once by a Very Sleepy D....

Title: Win, Lose or Draw?
Major pairing: Ban x Ginji (Vaguely implied)
Author: The Fablespinner ~*D*~
E-mail: fablespinner@ hotmail.com
Rating: PG
Genre: Short Ban POV – and enough Sap to make Syrup!
Archive: http://fablespinner.com (Eventually)
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Disclaimer: AYAMINE RANDO and AOKI YUUYA are the creative masterminds, KODOANSHA is the Publisher and SHUKAN SHOUNEN MAGAZINE gives us pretty Manga to look at, and BANDAI VISUAL owns the rest… I am gleefully having my way with their characters and sadly not making one red cent. Pretty much just like Ban and Ginji in the funds department! So sue if you must, just put it on my tab!
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I have too much time to think sometimes.

They say I defeated you, and maybe from a certain perspective I did. But did you lose?

No, you didn’t. Not from where I’m sitting looking at you sleep. I never saw that smile on your face before we fought that day. And I will never confess that I studied you a few days before I made myself known to you. I can’t describe what I thought of you then with any certainty. I know what I noticed about you though. It was the little things that added up to make the whole bigger picture of the notorious Raitei.

You never smiled, or if you did, it was false - it never once reached your eyes.

Your eyes were cold, distant, and haunted. There was something going on behind them, some turmoil you held at bay and it exhausted you. No one seemed to notice as they danced around you.

I noticed.

You were nothing like I know you today, but I could tell there was a part of you, the Amano Ginji I care about was there, but the weight of your world had you caged.

You are a free spirit and that is something if caged will die. I saw that in you then, I saw the chains clearly, you were so bogged down with the weight of them you couldn’t see them anymore. They had become a part of you.

That was what I decided to fight when I challenged you. I was never after Raitei - I was after the soul he had in a crushing prison.

I guess figured if I could get something like that back from an opponent who was as challenging as you were, then my idea for creating a retrieval service might just work. Because most people wanted tangible things back, this was a metaphor, pretty damn hard to get a concept back when it was never really a stolen good to start with.

Just goes to prove I’m a pretty smart guy, either that or I stand by my statement that I think too much. It’s probably a little bit of both really.

I won that first battle. I defeated Raitei in that aspect. I made you stop and think about you for a change. What did Ginji want, what was Ginji’s purpose in this world?

I’ll never forget your face, the way your eyes suddenly came alive when you realized there was more than one path before you.

I’ll also never forget the pain there, if I could go back and take back what I did to you I would. I would have found another way to open your eyes without the use of my Jagan.

You are the only person I’ve never asked “Did you have a Nice Dream?” Because I know you didn’t, I saw it all, and Ginji right then I realized you’re a lot stronger than people give you credit for. I learned on the inside, you surpass me in ways I cannot begin to describe.

That’s the battlefield I lose in. If you compare the measure of our souls, yours is infinite in its capacity to love, care, protect, nurture, desire, the list of good qualities goes on for eternity. It’s huge, immeasurable and I was absolutely blinded with its brilliance and shocked that someone like you even existed.

I lost.

My world was so petty, so materialistic and so cynical, that in comparison with you I was a sad joke of a man. We’d both been through things in our lives that were horrible and foul, and downright evil. I let those experiences make me cruel, caustic and violent. The term bastard comes to mind actually.

I was a supreme miserable bastard.

You? After a life of hell you still gave a shit about others, in fact, it was your whole purpose in life. You never once stopped to think about what was in it for you. You gave and gave until you were lost and then kept on giving. I concede defeat. My soul was never capable of that, I will always be a lesser man than you, but I can try to be a little less jaded. You give me hope again.

So I win again.

Back to square one.

So really… I think if you look at how we met, how we fought, and how we decided that our separate paths should become one and how you walked away from Mugenjou with only a promise from a stranger who had just given you the worst nightmare of your life we both won something.

We won trust.

We both lost something.

I lost my bitterness and hatred of the world, for the most part. It’s still there to a degree, but it’s not all encompassing as it once had been. I couldn’t see the world as completely evil anymore... I lost that ability when I met you. You are a bright spot in this world that no evil can touch, even if you claim otherwise.

You lost your cage, and you lost your way. You lost Raitei, your identity. That must have been terrifying for you. Yet, you reached out for my hand and I took yours and promised to help you find yourself again.

Win or Lose? It was more like Win AND Lose.

We did both, so if you want to get technical I guess you could call our ‘battle’ a Draw.

And we’re still making our way aren’t we? We may not be rich… yet.

But that’s only if you look in our wallets.

Right now from where I’m sitting, I’m the richest man alive.

I have you by my side.

That to me is worth more than money. You can’t buy hope or trust and you gave me both.

You can’t buy love either for that matter, and you have given me that too.

I take that back, I’m definitely a Winner.

We’re both Winners.

*Owari*


My first GB fic... And my knowledge is pretty much only Anime Based and a few SPARCE Manga Translations so yeah, just my interpretation. Hope you enjoyed.

Comments

( 11 comments — Leave a comment )
tpod
Sep. 18th, 2003 04:13 am (UTC)
Ahhhh, so nice.
Great Ban voice.

BTW, your icon had me in stitches. LMAO!!!
fablespinner
Sep. 18th, 2003 05:12 am (UTC)
Re: Ahhhh, so nice.
Thanks, and Ahhhh yes.. the icon that needs no words....

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Damn things!



bearilou
Sep. 18th, 2003 04:45 am (UTC)
I know nothing about GB but you gave it a nice voice nonetheless. very nice, D, but then your first POV's have always rocked!

and the icon rules.
fablespinner
Sep. 18th, 2003 05:14 am (UTC)
What's this I hear?

Are you GB deprived?!?!?

O_O

We will have to recitfy this, oh yes...

Oh HELL yes.

You *NEED* to see this one, you and Jan both appreciate good humor and even better plots with tons of slashible bishies.

*nod Nod*
nightambre
Sep. 18th, 2003 07:01 am (UTC)
Not familiar with the series, but... that Icon is great. >D
nemkess
Sep. 18th, 2003 08:36 am (UTC)
*whimpers*

D-ee! You can't do this to me! You can't go and get me interested in yet another fandom! Particularly one that my chances of seeing in this decade are slim to none.... Grr...

Great fic, BTW... ^_^ I want to know these characters now...

Oi, and the bunnies? I had to do a double take to make sure I wasn't seeing things... *snickers*
jo_mako
Sep. 18th, 2003 10:20 am (UTC)
ROTFLMAO!!! You have bunnies screwing on your icon! *dies laughing!*

Oh yeah...the fic was very well written. I like the narrative form. =)

lolololololol bunnies screwing! ahahahaha!
laughingwolf
Sep. 18th, 2003 05:08 pm (UTC)
I love the fic, i've only just gotten into the GB series and i'm glad i did. And i LOVE that icon of yours as well!!! *grin* it's a riot!
catzero
Sep. 18th, 2003 08:32 pm (UTC)
*stares at icon for five minutes laughing her ass off*
fyredancer
Sep. 19th, 2003 05:08 am (UTC)
That was lovely! And very Ban.
fablespinner
Sep. 19th, 2003 05:54 am (UTC)
Thanks. I find Ban POV surprisingly fairly easy to write, I hope it doesn't say something about me personally.

*GRIN*

D = Attuned to Bastards

~_^
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